I have to keep telling myself that this boot camp experience is all mental. Weeks into training, i suppose its natural to start feeling a strain, to have patience start wearing thin. Its hard to rally the troops. Getting 70+ young men on one accord isnt the easiest thing to do. I just feel they dont get. I think back to my days of being 18-21: was i this loud, obnoxious, rude, as these boys? Nothing rattles them. Failing an inspection, one that we practiced over and over, and then over again for, didnt rattle them. Watching a fellow recruit get ITE (intense training exercises ) as punishment didnt rattle them. Group pow wows, “kumbaya “sessions, did nothing but get everyone involved for the moment, then business as usual the next day.
I initially came with the intention to be in the background, just coast on by. So i didnt speak up. Didnt want to be that guy. There’s enough people trying to take charge, hear themselves speak. But with all the yelling, no one is getting it. The concept of follow orders, respecting each others role is falling upon deaf and defiant ears. Sometimes i feel the leading recruits are too lax, too passive. Then the switch to yelling occurs. Screaming is not always effective. I came to boot camp thinking i’d sit in the back and watch, but i see someway taking charge or helping those in charge is the best course of action, for my sanity and group unity.